Introspection: Day 1

Well, as you all (meaning the 4-5 of you who are reading this) know, I am instrospecting self... you know.. my life in general and things here and there. For a few days, I wont be available on vodafone/gmail/FB/Orkut. Iam going to keep a low profile. I will of course go to work (cuz I have to!), travel alone, write to my heart's content (not limited to my sad blog), try my best to be lil more domesticated, and if I get time then may be read some books. These days Iam awfully busy and dont get any time to be alone. I dont want to get lost in a crowd. I dont want to sway from my priorities. I dont want to become someone else.

Fcuk..... that didnt make much sense, did it? :D

And today was day one of introspection.

Well, I didnt go to work today!!! I was very depressed yesterday and then in the kitchen while making cold coffee, I managed to cut my fingers using a cold coffee maker. Iam seriously an ass. My fingers still hurt. I guess Iam still depressed and sad. So today, I went and got some thick kitchen gloves cuz I dont want to burn/cut any body anatomy again. The skin on my left hand has already started peeling off cuz last week I managed to burn my left hand. This week its the fingers on the right hand. I need to buy protective gears for kitchen. Domesticity is a distant dream! But tell you what, Iam happy that Iam atleast trying and I think Iam doing a decent job. And momma, today over the phone, told me that she is proud of me... she thinks Iam making good efforts and is proud of me. Damn, I could weep :-)

I went to Vikhroli cuz I had some work at the bank. Well, in order to get those work done, I should have reached there before 1:30 P.M.but I reached at 4:30 P.M. So, dad just made quick phone calls from Kerala and here in Mumbai, the guys from that bank agreed to do it and gave me a real VIP treatment :D I even went to Can Heritage but couldnt visit Ajitha aunty and Sruthi. I still miss living there with my parents.From there I went to Dmart and did some shopping for the house.

Apart from this, I have been just thinking, analysing and blogging...well not online or on paper...everything was basically in my head :D So after a lot of thinking and contemplating, I decided to call up Amrita and tell her that Iam ok and wouldnt be available for some time. I have been screening Pooja's and Amrita's calls since yesterday. Iam yet to call Pooja. I dont think Iam ready for it now. I screened each and every call today.I answered only the calls from my family. This cant go on for long, I will have to start answering phone calls. BTW, Asmita and her friends had come home today. So its not anything like Iam hiding away or gone underground. Iam very much there and accessible :-)

At the end of the day, Iam feeling good but Iam already dreading how Pooja is going to react once I come of this recluse kinda thingy. Its not gonna make much of any difference to other friends cuz most of them visit me regularly.